accept me
I am a nervouswreck
My real name is actually Harold Gong Haoran
A boy who is misunderstood by many.
Havent had even 1 relationship yet.
Influenced by his gay friends
He is helpful.
A pessimist.
Thinks he is a loser.
Known by my class as GAY>>>Shi Shan say I am still 1 rank below GAYLORD.
Luckily I dont have the gay genes(heng..) and wont become an actual homosexual.
Hopes.
1)get a gf(although it is impossible)
2)Get my PSP fixed!!
3)Get a new phone(3 years laterT.T)and it can be of any brand but LG(slow!!)
4)become class vice chairman next year
5)Get into RJC
6)become a prefect
7)get into scouts 02 and Science club
Gd @ keepin secrets cos i often forget them(PSPS I got bad memory)
div align="justify" style="padding: 8px;"> from peter xiiv: They felt like a scar on my mind, wrapped in within that concealed space. 'Stay', I felt a whisper behind my back, there was this insatiable force pulling me back from the corridor where we used to walk at. read more...
Wednesday, April 29, 2009/9:42 AM
Hihi…. I have nthin to post so I decided to post this random crap. It is HALF of a PLOT of a story between 2 brothers………… Dun expect too much… Remember—this is only half of the plot. The weapons were expertly positioned at their opponent’s most vulnerable points. Now it was the test of skill between those two. No one else had to be involved in this. Or should they say that no one must be involved in this. The matter between those two could only be solved by them themselves. Anymore interference would be too costly a price to pay. The two muscularly built men eyed each other, unflinching. The tension between their fiery gaze could be cut with a knife. Every movement would dearly cost them their life. As second passed, their straining eyes gradually got used to the dim surroundings, and for every millisecond, the two men’s identical and brilliantly blue eyes were skillfully picking up information of their surroundings, with their mind whirring at inhuman speed, calculating the amount the tension in their opponent’s muscles, predicting his next move, and already, they were already eight steps ahead of each other. Not only that, they were also visualizing the whole of the battlefield in their mind, calculating the amount of space for any movement and the every single delicate twist and turn of their supple body and the specific areas and way they had to land to reduce or prevent any injuries. Although they were already ahead of their opponent by eight steps, they dare not underestimate each other, for it was obvious that for both of them to survive until then was no mean feat for any other sniper, even professionals would face impossible difficulties. The intense battle had already lasted for two hours, without any victor. With their arms and legs slickly bent at unimaginable angles, and positioned with care, they were able to move almost three hundred and sixty degrees to prevent and any attack from about any direction, and it also increases the speed, range and the reaction of their limbs, allowing them to unexpectedly strike out at any openings the opponent had left vulnerable to attack. No one fidgeted. Every movement meant instant death. Their next move meant everything. They now had nothing to lose. Despite having the heavy burden of deciding their next move weighed upon their weary shoulders, their hearts did neither miss nor quicken a beat. They were truly professionally trained, and equipped with talent that ran in their family. They eyed each other with a gaze so fiery that one could wither on the spot, but it was clearly visible that they were physically exhausted, but even worse, they were severely mentally exhausted, and already, they could feel fatigue creeping like an uncontrollable plague numbing many areas of their body, hindering their movements. They were severely exhausted, panting and gasping for air in short and shallow breaths, their bodies covered with perspiration, soaking their clothes. Every pore in their body was opened, trying to cool their overheated bodies. Their clothes were no longer plain and clean, it was now tainted with blood and mud. Severe bruises and cuts covered their arms and legs, and one of them had a deep cut on his face, narrowly missing his eye. Their arms that held the gun was already trembling. Right now, even the weight of a pistol seemed like a ton, not to say their strained pair of legs, supporting their whole body. They could already feel their sensors failing, eyes were getting more and more blurry, and ears were picking up lesser and lesser sounds. It was not just a battle to test one’s skills and agility, but now, it had also become a test of mental and physical limitation. Right now, they have long surpassed human limitations—every action was now based on raw instinct.
Monday, April 27, 2009/4:56 AM
HAH! Todae got scout training..... First up!!! The Tok-A-Lot-Bout-Upcoming,-Vigorous,-Excruciatingly Painful- June Scout camp. And The Theme is......... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... STAR WARS!!! *LOLS* =.=" ... Den our EX senior patrol leader, now a venture scout, gave us the brief background of our theme ... Sry but i forgot bout the storyline... but the main thing is tt throughout the whole camp, we(sec1 to 3) will be given clues to who the gd guys and the bad guys are... there is one gd guy( u noe in the show, the greenish greenish mini mutant) and 2 bad guys(Luke skywalker, and the guy who made him turn evil)... we acouts are supposed to guess who they are(either 3 of the sec 4s) and are allowed to ask them questions, but the answers they give will be ultra indirect.... ... so basically, we have to observe the sec 4s throughout the whole camp... ... while doing lots of strenuous activities... ... ... then we tok about the grouping of the patrols: Sharks will be grouped with tiger. I m in shark... ... ... Then we conducted activities to get the grouped patrols get more familiar with each other ... so the first activity is dog and bone... I m no. 3 There are 9 ppl in Shark... There are 8 ppl in Tiger... So 1 guy in Tiger must take two numbers. The shark leader took both num 1 and 9. So when the conductor of the game called out 1 and 9... heheh... its 2(shark) v.s. 1(tiger)!!!! ... ... Then we saw some DAMN HOT RGC GIRLS!!! WALAO!!! BIG SIA!!! WALAO!!! then my scout seniors(also damn perverted) realised tt she nvr wear bra... COS HER SHIRT IS TOO DEEPLY SUNK IN-BETWEEN THE 2 INFLATED PARTS!! WOOTS!!! DAMN HOT!!! O YEA!!! ... ... ... ... After scout, i walk home wif Shi Shan. I tok 2 him bout it, and enphasizing the words'THEY ARE ENORMOUS' and 'ITS SO DAMN BIG' very loudly. haha EVERYONE beside us could hear... haha.... bb still perverted... mabye not gay....
Thursday, April 23, 2009/7:50 AM
This is a random picture i took along the underground passageway between City Hall and The Esplanade. I posted it here cos I have to cite it for a photoshop project, but i dunno how to sae where i got it. so i just post on this blog and cite my blog.haha.smart right?
Tuesday, April 21, 2009/5:14 AM
Sorry for i have not been posting... Reasons for not doing so: 1)Cannot use computer.(ask my parents) 2)The symptomps of lack of sleep is appearing very, very quickly--only 5 hours a dae on weeksdaes u noe!: i)severe headache ii)muscle ache iii)lack of sleep. so sorry.....
Thursday, April 16, 2009/6:46 AM
/5:39 AM
I'm now a CRAZY KNUCKLE CRACKER!! HEHEH *crack**crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*crack*
Saturday, April 11, 2009/2:53 AM
stupid pics... nothing to post... no choice... hope Shan Wei and Sean dun kill me... I look damn geek and retarded ... bb
Friday, April 10, 2009/9:30 AM
I took the "are u a girl or boy" quiz on facebook and my results is tt I am 60%boy and 40%girl. yay..i think' @ least better than 50% girl. yay this proves I'm gay...i think. the reason for getting such a great score is tt I answered"dunno" for one of the questions:" What is your gender". haha i deserve it cheeky as always. harold. dream on,dreamer. for you will never get her
/12:10 AM
o yea... i saw this poem in a manga too... FYI I DIDNT WRITE THIS I came here to shit and stink but all I do is sit and think and here I sit, broken hearted couldnt shit but only farted some come here to sit and think some come here to shit and stink, often I come here to scratch my balls and read all the bullshit on the walls here I lie in stinky vapor bcaus some bastard stole the toilet paper shall I lie or shall I linger or shall I be forced to use my finger quoted from:" http://www.onemanga.com/Air_Gear/39/credits/"
Thursday, April 9, 2009/11:34 PM
i was reding manga todae. I read tt guy A did a 'thunder punch' on guy B. den the next pg showed tt u can do it too, by raising ur arm 90 degrees with ur fist facing the sky and punch the area a little below the elbow. and i was like:"OMG!I WANNA TRY TT TOO" so i did the thunder punch on my self it was damn pain and numbing. shit.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009/6:07 AM
...Today.... ...my birthday.... ...my meaningless birthday... ...I dont feel any different... ...ok... ...mabye I have just 1 feeling... ...the feeling of anger... ...for why had my birthday come so soon... ...now I must set my target to 13 year olds in napha test... ...thx all who wished me happy bdae... ...although most ppl didnt even realise... ...really meaningless... ...o yea... ...although it was my bdae, my parents dont even allow me to watch TV or play com... ...I did 150+ push ups and 40+ crunches, but other 02 scouts other than benny would say tt we didnt do tt much cos benny and I who are in sharks (cos of boredom during our patrol meeting), did physical meeting while the other patrols played games... ...O yea... ...because of boredom again... ...our patrol leader after hearing tt todae was my bdae... ...thought of a very gd way to waste time... ...and made the patrol sing out loud a birthday song for me... ...so loud tt all the other patrol heard and joined in... ...=.="... ... ...the wish i made for my birthday this year--to get a gf...JUST JOKING!... ...anyway, who would want me? seriously... someone, cheer me up please... ...so sad... ...depressed... ...pessimistic... ... ...and the only way out is to... ...dream... ... ...still dreaming... ...Harold Gong Haoran... ...the epic fail... ...the *'learner'*(loser, actually)... ...
Tuesday, April 7, 2009/5:51 AM
ppl, for ur info, dun ever go to facebook and do the "WHICH SINGAPOREAN ELITE SCHOOL DO YOU BELONG TO?" cos it is damn unreliable. cos my results is rgs..... =.=" WTF! I M A BOY, DAMNIT!
/4:42 AM
hi. long time no post liao. YAY! TMR my bdae. dunno y but dun feel as happi as i should be. thx ** *** [if u dun wanna be named] for giving me a present. YAY! the crest I've drawn for the class logo was accepted. YAY! O yea. tt Elizabeth in my ISS isnt my crush. she is actually my real-life cousin. I just borrow her name. and my crush isnt called Elizabeth. kk Happy Bdae, me,happi bdae. thx, me
Sunday, April 5, 2009/3:07 AM
Sianz...long time no post...since so many ppl post thier individual short story, i think i would post mine too... PS this is the first romance story written by me so dun expect anything gd.....
LETTER OF APOLOGY It was her. That pair of green eyes, always brimming with joy, and that long, silky hair, that delicate figure, so fragile that she might shatter if handled without care, and that melodious laughter that would infect the people around her instantly. She was Elizabeth.
I had never been the guy known for his looks, in fact, my appearance was below average. Due to my lack of fashion, my hardworking personality and the big black glasses I wore, I was always known as a geek. I had never been the centre of attraction. I was always struggling with self doubt and was a pessimistic person who often fails, but it was often her encouragement that gave me the courage me to go on.
I met Elizabeth in primary one, when we were allocated to the same class. Ever since then, I developed a crush on her. Whenever she spoke, my heart would involuntarily skip a beat. She was, to me, the angel that brought light when darkness overwhelmed me. There was also a legion of other boys who had fallen head over heels for her as well, and already, I had found that she had been occasionally going out with Calvin.
Calvin was my best friend and we were very close. I first met him in kindergarten and we had become the best of friends since. He was forever kind to lend a helping hand whenever I was needed him and would forgive me no matter how serious my mistakes were. He was a caring and valuable friend.
Jealousy spread like a plague through my body and it triggered off something inside me. I cannot believe that my best friend actually took her away. I often stared in disgust whenever I saw them together and I would feel a vein throb dangerously in my neck.
That night, I asked myself— friendship or crush? I made a painful decision—crush.
From that day onwards, I treated Calvin coldly. I often quarreled with him and evaded him as much as possible. Soon, he noticed something wrong about me and questioned me earnestly about it, but I would not tell for the sake of my pride. We thus ended our friendship.
It was painful and surprising, for I had broken something so thick with so little effort, to the point where it could not be mended, but my self-image pulled me together again.
It was Sunday afternoon and I was returning from the library when I saw her. She was as attractive as ever. I stood, heart beating wildly as I stared at her. My palms were sweaty as I fiddled with my fingers. I took my chance.
I muttered, “Elizabeth!”
“Eh? Oh, hello Harold! ”
I managed to mumble, “I… like you…” my voice trailed off.
“Pardon?”
I plucked up my courage and shouted, “I like you!” The words rang in my head. Our faces instantly turned scarlet as I looked down. She was at a loss for words.
Shame burned in my face. How I wish I could dig a hole and bury myself.
“I’m sorry but I don’t feel the same way towards you…” Elizabeth muttered before walking away. Sadness pierced my heart and my eyes suddenly brimmed over with tears. It was too great for me to bear. Then it began to drizzle, and within seconds, became a downpour. I collapsed onto the cold, wet floor with my clothes soaking wet. I regretted my actions. How could I just so easily give up Calvin, who stood with me through thick and thin for eight years, for some girl who did not even have any feeling for me? How could I have put a wedge between our friendship? I cried in remorse and shame.
Here I am, penning down this letter of apology to Calvin, hoping he would let me mend what was broken.
Thursday, April 2, 2009/4:31 AM
YAY! 5 daes more Till B'DAE!! ....hope friends wish me happi bdae.... hopes(may/can come true) -eat a b'dae cake -get present frm parents -i dunno...i m easily contented.... hopes(CANNOT come true) -get present frm crush(cannot one lah! she dun even noe my b'dae when) -get present frm a girl(cannot one lah! no 1 cares) -play com all dae(cannot one lah! parents not-at-all slack) -get my PSP fixed~crashed by dad~(cannot one lah! they dun even encourage me to play) -get a gf~jk~(okay....tts a dream tt wont come true) heheh.^^ cant wait for 8 april... Träumen, Harold
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