I am a nervouswreck
My real name is actually Harold Gong Haoran
A boy who is misunderstood by many.
Havent had even 1 relationship yet.
Influenced by his gay friends

He is helpful.
A pessimist.
Thinks he is a loser.

Known by my class as GAY>>>Shi Shan say I am still 1 rank below GAYLORD.
Luckily I dont have the gay genes(heng..) and wont become an actual homosexual.

Hopes.
1)get a gf(although it is impossible)
2)Get my PSP fixed!!
3)Get a new phone(3 years laterT.T)and it can be of any brand but LG(slow!!)
4)become class vice chairman next year
5)Get into RJC
6)become a prefect
7)get into scouts 02 and Science club

Gd @ keepin secrets cos i often forget them(PSPS I got bad memory)
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from peter xiiv: They felt like a scar on my mind, wrapped in within that concealed space. 'Stay', I felt a whisper behind my back, there was this insatiable force pulling me back from the corridor where we used to walk at. read more...

hi.

Sorry to huever hu read my blog.

i cant blog for the next few months cos my mom ban me frm using com! X.X

so sad.....

i suddenly dun feel like posting anything that seems wrong liao....

i juz wanna say tt during our scince lesson,
teacher gives us terms, for example: homo sapien,
and we r supposed to guess what animals they r.

got 1 term is sex~~~ ( sry i can onli remember first 3 letters...)den 1 guy suddenly shout:" Sir, its Harold! the animal is Harold!"

finally...i updated my links...........
so sad hols almost over..........
and tt so little ppl coming to my blog........
so pls to show tt u have to come to my blog,pls, tag.........

still so perverted.......
still got hw nvr finish........
sianz........
not cant cope but juz too lazy to cope.......


someone.......
still hoping for that someone.....
pls, the devil, just take me away........
the pain in my heart is killin me.........



.......................
still dreaming,
harold


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Wanna cry....so sad.........
cos
I
have
discovered
tt
Shana's (>.< so cute)
cute
voice
is
actually
voiced
by
a
totally
not
cute
middle
aged
woman...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
wanna sulk in the corner of the room...

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WTF.
thats the only 3 words i m going to use to describe 2dae's tuition.
Actually i dun have tuition 2dae, but because of scouts, i missed my actual class on SUN and i have to make up for it todae. nooooo.....curse......never knew Tiara is also coming for todae's class...

Lemme tell u something:
all of u guys know i'm a perv but i dun wan my tuition teacher to know cos she veri clas to my mom and will tell her everything.
But although i told tia not to say anything perverted bout me, she suddenly said:" u noe what? The anime u recommended to ccc was damn sick!" I was utterly stunned cos she said it so loud tt the whole class heard it. noo.luckily teacher not in class, but the whole class of perverted 'O' level students(same class) heard the word sick and pestered me bout it, even after teacher came in. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
CURSE HER!

Well the class is also quite perverted and fun.
a guy knickname trash (haha) handed a bunch of $50 notes to tuition taecher to pay the fees but the tuition teacher said," whats that stain on the money? issit blood?? if it is den i dun wanna noe where it came frm!"
*suspense*
Den the whole class (ok not the whole class but all the boys including me) burst out into histerical laughter. I bet the teacher knew what SHE was talking bout. i hope u geddit if u dun geddit, scroll down for the ans.
PS:not for the weak penised.haha.


















here is the reason:
when a man *toots* a virgin(female) the female will bleed a few drops of blood.
now u geddit?

WOOTS!!:)
I collected 201 dollars during these 3 daes of jobweek (scouts)!
Finally, I am able to get a bumblebee badge!--what I've always hope for--i think...
O boy!

Too bad Shi Shan in China, miss this year of Jobweek, so sad. cos...(lemme explain the rules of jobweek to u...)

You must get 200 dollars to get a bumblebee badge and there are 4 kinds of bumblebee badges altogether--green, bronze, silver and gold. For example, if you get 200 dollars in sec1, you will get a green bumblebee and if u get 200 dollars in sec2, you will get a bronze bumblebee. But if you miss 1 year of jobweek, you will start from the latest bumblebee lv. for example you got 200 dollars in sec 1 but u miss sec2 jobweek but earned 200 dollars in sec3, you will get a silver bumblebee. geddit? so if u miss 1 year, you will never get gold, and if u miss 2 years u will never get siolver and so on.

so now leats talk bout the jobweek I had:

First dae:
I wasnt veri enthu but i made 87 dollars, the most of the 3 daes.
Our team was mad up of 3 sec 1 (Malcolm, Benny and I) and 2 sec 3 (Ryan and Joshua...hehe both so veri gay). as sec ones, we were assigned to HDB flats SUX!!! and we were assigned to Jurong East OMG SO FAR AWAY!

Woke up super early~yawn~ and den we went to RI to meet. not very enthu cos so tired... so good for tt ryan lor, he wake up late den didnt cum to tt stupid meeting.so gd and sleep more..zzz.. and when I saw Joshua, the first thing I thought was: is he gay??OMG!! dun be alarmed cos i think every1 is gay. ok they r not gay but they r perverts...I was shocked to discover tt the target for this year's jobweek was $500 OMG!! wan die issit??

So off we went to Jurong East MRT station.PS: so good for Ryan again lah! live in Jurong East!
After which we diligently went to work in HDBs.Luckily Ryan live near tt area and knew where rich ppl live (4~5 rm flats mah) and tt I kiasu go bring street directory, so we managed to locate tt area quite easily. (what I think bout ryan: looks perverted and sly when he grin and show his teeth, but he is a nice guy) so aff we went to do those flats.

so boring and tiring and all the sissy sec ones keep moaning for water....so thirsty... den after tt we quite happy cos we earned quite a lot and every1 learned 2 forbidden techniques:

1){serious}ask for donations although it was written on the jobweek card: THIS IS NOT A DONATION CARD

2){not serious}JOSHUA:"u noe how to look out for flats tt have lots of money?Imagine tt there r $signs on each hdb flat and the hdb flat which have the biggest $ sign have the most money to spare."heheh.it works u noe?

tt dae, i earned the most among the sec ones cos i have to chiong cos every1 except me can pump thier own money in but my parents dun allow.

Benny say i earn the most for tt dae[$87, the most i earned among the 3 days] cos i look cute.I think he meaned it.I was so angry for being humiliated by him for calling me cute tt i shouted @ him" if i cute, den BISHAN UNCLE CUTER!"

tts all for dae 1

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WTF! i dun feel so gay todae.
AM I LOSING MY GAY ESSENCE???!!!!
NOOOO.......
DONT DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!!

anyway,
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hope i dun become a normal person after all...

....

yay 2 dae 1st dae og not-so-gay-although-got-me jobweek....so dull....
yay i earn $87! most among the sec ones in our grp.
yay.
love that bubble tea i bought on the way.
so bored...
2morrow still got jobweek

sianz

WOAH!!!

Himari so damn CUTE leh!!!!

**daydreaming**

she look just lyke SHANA(woots!!:)) just tt her chest is MUCH MUCH MCUH MORE BIGGER!!
oyea...

*mind driftsss.....*

Zen say tt i now lyke girls wif big chest liao.WTF.okay i m not disagreeing.I might just agree a tiny tiny little bit.

HEHEHEH.

and plus, she has a WTF beautiful sword!!!OMG!!!!but shana's blog still more powerful and look nicer.heheh.

o yea, she also look damn chio when she turn to half cat--human body wif cat ears and tail.OMG!!!!!!!!!! she look almost as good as Lala-chan!! *drool...*heheh.....*quickly clean up the drool*damn hot xia.....

nvm.

o yea. lets tok more serious stuff. i think i should just let go of my crush.... she doesnt even lyke me. what hope do i have.... so miserable..... hope someone hu appreciate me appears...................

bout me rite now:
still struggling eif self doubt.

2 dae, my chinese teacher congratulate Qi Ji(the fattest guy in our class) on his gd composition and tell him to read out loud. PS i help u translate that particular sentence: "that day, my family decided to climb the mountain. we climbed and climbed but i was gradually lagging behind." my chinese teacher then interrupted:" i really advise u to eat lesser next time..." HAHAHA!! hope u get it...

CLE passed...gayed...

EN passed...gayed.....

CS passed...gayed...

During maths, due to my poor eyesight, i was mad to see nearer to the board,next to Kyle(second most perverted guy in class) and then during whole lesson, i made disgusting vag.( short form of some word tt i dun wan to use) sucking noises. Heheh. he seem so aroused.....

During history, our teacher mad us watch some retarded video of some retarded ppl who are using retarded ways to imitate those retarded romans. As the lights were off, we can do whatever we wan!! so Jon Boh and I masturebated each other. OMG SO STIFF!!! ppl hu read this dun be offended, Jon boh and I were merely playing wif each other..heheh....

den during scout training..so tough....we were mad to form a caterpillar--everyone sitting on the ground wif the legs wrapped around the hip of the person in front and we have to move foreward. SO HARD AND PAIN!!! ouch!! %$#@. so gd during water break, shi shan action go chiong to water cooler and cut himself so he dun nd to do.....

.........i just feel so bad after i recieve a chainmail on these kinds of mushy thing.*gulp* Cos it makes me realise IT again...sulking in the corner of the room.....

this is the chain mail:

This chain letter is real so follow the instructions and something good will happen
LISTEN TO THIS LETTER AND GOOD LUCK!!!!!

Sorry, but this chain letter is for real.

When Anne Wichert got it for the first time, she ignored it and a week later the love of her life dumped her for no good reason so BEWARE, and just send the stupid letter!!!!!!

The Lovers of the Heart In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote to whom we please but one kiss.

Article 1: Statement of Love: The Kiss
1.Kiss on the hand I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck I want you
4.Kiss on the lips I love you
5.Kiss on the ears I am just playing
6.Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes kiss me
8.Playing with your hair I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go

Article 2: The Three Steps
1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3.Guys & Girls Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.

Article 3: The Commandments
1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.
2.Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.
3.Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

* Remember * A peach is a peach A plum is a plum, A kiss isn't a kiss Without some tongue.

So open up your mouth close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while
8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore' even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17.The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
23. The way they say 'I miss you'
24. The way you miss them
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.
Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling. Only felt.

4 ur info.this post aint tt gay.

YAY!! I M IN SHARK PATROL!!!

if u dunno wad i m talkin about, i m in scouts and every unit( scout group) have a number of units, and ours are name lion, shark,tiger, dolphin etc.

I m in shark.

IT ROX!!!I later tell u y.

the onli ppl i m super familiar wif in the patrol is benny koh. too bad shishan isnt in shark.=_="

the reasons for saying it rox:

1) The patrol leader very nice!

2)Every1 dere tok crap all the time.

3) we juz rock! YEA!

4)The patrol leader is as gay as I m.

5)the patrol leader watches porn.O YEA!!!HOT MAN!!!

6)Still got a lot but i dun wanna write...

O YEA!!! SHARK SHARK SHARK SHARK SO PROOOOO

FYI, our patrol leader is Ding Hao. He rox. he think he very handsome.O yea!!

thats all for scouting.

now lets tok bout PE.

our pe teacher tok to us bout playing fair in olympic games and he wan us to have a soccer match, wif 1 team cheating while the other team playing fair.

match 1: we play fair.opponent cheat.
result: We own 1:0

match 2:we cheat(we tell every1 tt we were cheating but we were actually playing fair.o yea! we rule)
result: 0:0


YEA WE OWN!!!!(do perverted actions)

~A gay's life is an exciting one~

WTF.WTH. Baka Melissa, Baka Malcolm!

According to Malcolm:

4 ur info, (i didnt noe tt at first) Melissa, and Malcolm(my ri friend) in same tuition! =_="
And one day, melissa go ask Malcolm,"hey u noe Haoran?"

"yea I noe"

"how was he like?"

*suspense*

"damn gay. Go around *****(describing wad I do everyday), and influencing the whole class, making them gay.O yea, he aso in luve in anime character"

*suspense*

"yea he damn gay."

*suspense*

"yea."


the onli thing i m afraid now is tt melissa go tell EVERYONE tt i m a gay.

damn.

still dreaming,
harold the pessimistic gay/perv

Everything is wrong.everything.nothing is just.what an heartache to see. still dreaming, dreaming of her.......

so bored. so gay. am I ruining the reputation of RI? Still suffering from self doubt. should I or should I not?

still watching the anime, to-love-ru. i am still so gay. no change. as perverted as always. thinking of her. cant keep her out of my mind. tomorrow got chinese cct. so much pressure. want to die.

still dreaming of her( how long am I going to continue doing tt),of her,
The dreamer, Harold.
Nerver ending pessimism.

pls do not be disturbed by the contents.

WOAH!!!!!
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!!!

ps...I'm a 1/3 perv(hopefully) ,2/3 gay(definitely) and 1/3 normal(I think)

OMG!!!!SOOOOO HOT!!!!!!!LALA IS SO DAMN FUC*INGKLY HOT MAN!!!(do perverted actions)

I am watching an anime: to-LOVE-ru(ZEN and JON told me to watch it) and the anime character, Lala, is so damn hot.

actually it is something close to hentai ,juz without private parts and semen!!! The editor sure knows how to make rafflesians happy!!!juz jk.

I hope all u perv guys out there to watch to-LOVE-ru!!!
OH MAN!
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For your inforamtion, the following sick stuff were done /said just for sexual arousement(jkjk).

Nothing much done todae.

1)Zen, Jon nad I tok about Aisaka, Minori and Shana(look at previous post) and how we wan to hump dem.not so exciting as all we said cant be done.they say tt in order to make 100% sure tt the anime characters belongs to u and no 1 can steal, u must look at her hentai pic.we'll, they said tt they have already looked at the hentai images of the anime character they liked.now onli left me.I think i should go look.

2)during recess, Peter said ," who wan join my anti(sound:ant-ee) ri group?)...I said"I wan!"...Zen den said,"I also wan to join this anti(sound: HEN-TIE) group".notice the diff? So most of us all go takle him(including me) and pull down his pants.HAHA!!GREEN UNDIES!!!

3)ok THIS is stupid~~when I illegally change my clothes in class(hu cares.my class is full of gays after all), Ben was spying on me and suddenly said"hey harold.u noe wad, he actually have 2 packs on ur stomach.its just that they havent fully develope yer"WTF!!!I DUN TRUST HIM.

4)Nothing but more gaying for the rest of the day.


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Lol...nothn to post 2dae too.

For your info, the following agreement is juz a joke.dont ever take it seriously and den hate me 4 life.This account is true.

o yea...
I juz discovered something: my friends (those 2 pervs behin d me)and I have come to an agreement to our stupid and pervertic quarrel. I dont think i should use the word 'quarrel' cos it sounds damn sissy.nvm, since we're gays, hu cares.JKJK. ok dun misunderstand wad i'm saying.i mean jkjk bout the word 'quarrel' sounding sissy, not the part where i mentioned 'gay'.haha

about the agreement:
Jon Boh: "no! Aisaka (most chio character frm Tora Dora! [It rox!]) is mine,dun u dare to steal her away frm me!!! I wanna hump her......"

Zen Gan: "humph!hu will want Aisaka! her Boo*s so small, wan have sex also no pleasure!I take Minori(2nd most chio character frm Toradora!)! her Boo*s is juz rite and she aso quite cute, when I hump her, surely lots of pleasure!!"

Haoran:"I agree wif Jon Boh! I dun care bout the size of the thingy-thingy on the girl's chest!If Chio den gd enough liao! I take Shana!(most chio character in Shakugan No Shana![it rox too])"

Jon Boh: 'High 5 man!'

Zen Gan: "u 2 noobs, dunno wad is real beauty!"

Me and Jon Boh:" u den!" den we bash Zen Gan up heheh!!

so now Aisaka is Jon Boh's, Minori is Zen Gan's and Shana is mine.heheh.But we noe it wont come true so we sulked after the whole incident...

so sad......

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I realli dunno wad to post for todae's blog, so i juz wanna tok bout who I am and what my personality is.

I noe its pretty lame but i believe some of the facts about are pretty amusing.

1)many ppl noe that I am a pessimist.But am I pessimist ever since I was born? NO. Due to the high expectations of my parents, they keep comparing me wif the ppl, etc. Shi Shan and say how very noob i am as compared to him. quote~ Look at Shi Shan! He always 自觉地 study(PS i dunno how to say it in english) thus his results is reliable and truly shows his standard, unlike you, 读书要被逼的, thus it doesnt reflect on your actual standard. I really dunno how you ******** manage to get into ri ~

2)still addicted to anime, esp. Toradora! ~~Aisaka so CUTE!!!!! and Shakugan No Shana~~~Shana also so CUTE!!!!! PS: I am not a pervert.u should really consider those 2 ppl sitting behind me if u think i m a pervert--thay wanna hump the anime characters.

3)Feeling soooooooooooo deprived. Dunno y. hope some idiot would take pity on me.

4)I believe I have gotten a lot gayer ever since I entered RI. Shi Shan consider me as 3rd or fourth gayest in class....(ps: lemme let u on something~~my whole class all super gay)

5)Still in love wif the love of my life.....so sad......u noe y.......

6)LOVE SWORDS esp. KATANAs!!!!!!!!!! it is the legendary sword of the samurai.

7)the other stuff bout me can be found in the quize in my previous posts.other stuff bout me will be revealed next time when I have nothing to write again.

8)Thx for reading till the end of this boring post.Thus I wanna tell you that the most important fact bout me:I dont feel appreciated at all.....

Events of todae
1)peter made me masterbate him.WHOA SO BIG XIA!!!
2)Kyle show me his balls.
3)OWN Ting Wei and Jon Boh in DM
4)Still angry wif Jon Tan, my scouts senior for he havent marked my paper yet.